Character Building

Sometimes life deals you a little blow to shake you up, just as you thought everything was going well. That's what happened to me yesterday, I received some unexpected news and it's been really hard for me to see the situation clearly. Sometimes I think I try to defeat myself before learning from my mistakes and giving myself another chance. Makes me realise I still have a long way to go down the road of spirituality. If I can't even think positively when a small upset occurs, how on earth will I manage when things start to get even tougher? I think a lot of it comes down to ego and not wanting to admit failure. The right thing to say is that it's all character building! An old saying also springs to mind- fools rush in where angels fear to tread!

What did we do without them??

What did we ever do before the advent of the mobile phone?? Is it only in the UK that we call them mobiles?? Yesterday mine packed in and it's as if I've lost one of my limbs, I can't bear it. Thank goodness I have a spare phone , but it's so old it's almost embarrassing. What did we do before them? Can you ever remember arranging to meet someone and just waiting patiently for them to turn up, instead of ringing them constantly to see where they are? Imagine going out now in your car without your phone, what would you do if you broke down? Or if you were stuck on a train, late for work?? The scenarios are mind boggling. Technology has taken over the western world. How different to rural Africa for example , where some people don't even have electricity, heating water and cooking are all done over open fires! Part of me wants to be that person who lives a simple life, close to nature, it's just a different kind of struggle. I think it's hardest for the people caught between the two worlds.

PJ's in the supermarket??

I am shattered to say the least, all this studying business tired me out yesterday, I will have to get used to it pretty quick, for when we start rehearsing for gigs again, it will be even worse. As long as I don't turn into one of those slobs that goes to the supermarket in their pyjamas, I mean that is pretty vile, don't those girls have any self respect? I hope they clean their teeth before they go out, judging by the photos of them in the paper , they look like a right bunch of bruisers, I feel sorry for their kids. My Mum and Aunt were always so smartly dressed whenever they went out, indeed if my cousin and I accompanied my Aunt on her weekly visit to the city centre on a Friday, we were expected to present ourselves in our smartest attire- jeans were strictly forbidden. This didn't do us any favours however as we rebelled against it all and ended up wearing some embarrassingly strange outfits in our teenage times. Then my aunt would hoot with laughter as we staggered off on a night out, us thinking we looked so cool. I still actually cringe at some of the things I wore, no no no no no no , I can't bear to remember!!