Why do I feel so shitty? It's like I have no motivation and I'm so, so, blocked, sometimes I can't even think of a silly status to write on FB, it's so scary and I feel a bit shocked after the events of the weekend, I mean it's just been one disappointment after the other lately and all the hard work and effort that goes into everything and not to mention the cost of doing everything, and all you get rewarded with is a kick in the teeth and not so much as even a thank you from any of these b**** and w******* promoters that we've been involved with. So we've had to have a rethink about the way we are doing things, there are lots of things I can do on a personal level to improve what I do and I will be addressing these, but sometimes I feel so much despair because it really is difficult and soul destroying and without wanting to wallow in self pity, I can understand why loads of bands become disillusioned. So my emotions are in a crisis, at least I managed to write all this